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Tue Nov 3, 2009, 1:49 PM

Before you're gonna spam me, read it please. This is from my old account!

: " I felt badly on my two old accounts, it seemed to me that I lose my individuality. I didn't like what I do here and how I do it. I have created a new account here on DA. I will not leave DA. I needed space for my soul, on these accounts I didn't find it. People constantly waited and asked for something from me, I started to feel badly, because I run counter to my interests and desires, drawing and photographing something. It looks like I do it all for someone, instead doing it for myself. I got tired of my nickname, I've outgrown it and I can not associate myself with it anymore. Plus it's even spelled wrong, I needed to write it differently, for everyone read it correctly. I don't like my nickname because of number too and finally I don't like sense of this nickname.
As I already said: "The problem is that i need a change".
I'm not leaving DA, drawings will be on both accounts, I just will decide what to upload and where.

_{30stm - capricorn (brand new name)
...So I run, hide and tear myself up
Start again with a brand new name
And eyes that see into infinity

I will disappear
I told you once and I'll say it again
I want my message read clear
I'll show you the way, the way I'm going

So I run, and hide and tear myself up
Start again with a brand new name
And eyes that see into infinity...}

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~PikaCheeka 22 hours 58 minutes ago

Ohhh I found you. <3 I not only love your art, but your photos. I was looking for your Itachi cosplay as references for the make-up AND I HAD TO HUNT IT DOWN. But I won hurhur.

<3 <3 <3 Don't feel bad about the change. I've had this same name and persona on every site I've been on for...12 years now (more than half my life -_-) and sometimes I really want to just kind of be someone else.

~selfoblivion 19 hours 4 minutes ago

Thank You for your kind words

I feell OK now.
At least, I don't feel that I am obliged to someone by something, and I shouldn't do something that isn't on my way of feeling right now.
I have started to understand that I feel myself guilty for "spamming" my accounts by thing that I want, but watchers don't want to see it. It shouldn't be like that. I want to be more free for self-expression.

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my first account is here [link]

~PikaCheeka 4 hours 59 minutes ago

I still get bothered by people to continue fanfics I dropped FOUR OR MORE YEARS AGO. Unfortunately, I've had this name for so long that it's too established for me to want to drop. It's how everyone knows me, so it would be a lot of work to pick up a new name/persona.

XD And I have a LOT of people on my watch-list, a lot of which I added because I liked a couple of their pics and want to see more at some point. If they have something up that doesn't interest me, I keep scrolling. It's not the end of the world. The only time it bugs me is if someone posts 8 million things a day.

Sooo <3